Earlier in the month I wrote of my disillusions around my own direction in EVE. Essentially fed up with highsec with its mining, mission running, and ho-hum safety with all my focus scattered across lonetrek. EVE SOB was a drift again. I craved action and change. I wanted a bigger ship. I wanted to shoot people. Want had become my only need.
As my own profile states “I am too stubborn to follow and too angry to lead” this leaves me limited options moving forward. I have to lay down one of my crosses and get on with it. The Stubborn part of me is a gift from my Scottish blood. The anger is a result of MMO players creating senseless political bullshit inside a game.
In the end the actions taken are to keep with my qualities and set them aside, let me explain:
The first clear thing I have done is keep SonOfBraben in our highsec manufacturing corp. to continue down the road of the builder. Mining is becoming less and less of a need here and having ZombiNutz sitting about in a hauler is silly now. The stubborn will stick to the plan and keep myself funded without fear of becoming angry in having to manage people. The hermit life in all its glory!
As a result of this ZombiNutz is now free to go explore the universe. He is back in a starter corp. as another drake flying young Caldari with many lessons to learn. A young Caldari actively seeking employment, as a grunt for a corporation that strikes me as worthy of my time. A corp. that has some bloody direction this time and not just one man’s goal list. Yet one not large enough to have the political torment that fuels my anger. As a grunt I can enjoy following someone else’s plan and whatever experiences they might afford me. I can let my anger guide my missiles towards targets and agendas while someone else anguishes over the results.
I’ve reached out to a corp. here and chatted with folks there. I am still looking for the right mix of nice people and big plans to throw my little Caldari at. So if you have a corp. that could use a generic Drake jockey who can also fly Gallente Frigs and an Orca. Send ZombiNutz a mail with sparkling recruitment promises and corp. vision that I cannot see though. In return my blog will include the story of my life in this corp. for the entire world (well 3 people) to read.
**EDIT*** I FLY US-EAST Time Zone. However I tend to play odd hours a few nights a week.